I still love you !!!

Dear!!!!!!I actually don't know the fact that what is the joy and success, similarly sadness and sorrow are also to be searched in the big dictionary of life and yet universe। Some days are sorrowful but still I feel happy on it and at other hand the beautiful nights also become dreadful dream and leads to sadness। I searched my soul, heart and all other parts but still to my sadness these were empty spaces which could not make me content. If I feel happy on one thing it is that I understand the meaning of life, love and indeed the bond of friendship. I should and have to be proud that this all were possible only with the help of great devotee friends like you & others.I know my deeds harmed you a lot and my name always pinches you. I know all that even then I don't know why I am trying to do so. Today I feel my deeds as the devil's deed but at same time I make it true by understanding myself that I was nearer to the success. I can't just blame myself for those big issues of those days. With me lots of factors behind played a key role to betray me from my faith. Anyway I know you are fire in my presence but that makes me water because wrong should be blamed. I am ready to be punished from your hand. I know you want to spray sprit on my face. If this makes you happy then I am ready to accept that punishment. But I always want to see you happy and content. For your happiness there is nothing that I can tolerate to sacrifice.No world says the truth, all taffeta crazy aren't truth and yet a world is beyond the fact that the truth is just truth but not other else. Time, I respect it, love &like it. Somehow I find a degree of truth in time but yet to my sadness except truth I find all false even in time. After I started searching truth in myself, I scanned my legs, hands, hearts and mind but again I was hopeless in the job of finding truth. such roams around – Not a jet set is so always, a day will or might comes when he is to be compared to one who spreads hands for living. Pinnacle of success is not limited in degree or doctorate. It is the needs and deeds i.e. the needs of society and deeds on the society. My orphanage may hurt other in different way but I am prepared for that. Trouble comes then solutions arise so there should not be any term such as disappointing or disgrace or sorrow or anything else.You might be feeling bore. Yes! This is obvious. But let me tell you-each sorrow of a person is key success for others. I know, I have played with you, I played with your feelings and your simplicity but let me clear that a coin contains two faces. Now you need no help of mine. Even then I am there to help you. I want your days to pass smoothly with no troubles and tension. Whenever I beg or cry, my misdeeds aren't tolerable one. So you do not even wanna spell my name. Leave it, I'm just making you sad but no; I just wanted to wish your birthday and pray for beautiful tomorrow.Last but not the least, useless bamboo cutting can also be used as a pipe which serves the life for living. All the best for your bright future and you dreams may come to a successive end.Always thinking well about you… and indeed loving you........